Have you ever felt like you were on the verge of a major life break through or maybe revving up to make the changes that would take your life in the right direction? Everyone knows what I'm talking about. Maybe it was a motivational quote you read, a song you heard or even someone's else's story of overcoming your same battle. But how many times have we gotten all motivated..."revved up"...stepped out on the edge of our victory & simply walked away? Only to slide further into discouragement & overwhelming feelings of failure.
This has been the story of my adult life. I've made the trip to the edge more times than I like to remember. I know it's every step. It's as familiar to me as my own home. The trip up is exciting & hopeful. Thinking this is it this will be the time I take that last step! I can do it! I'm going to do it! Nothing can stop me this time!...almost there!...I can see the end!...just a few more steps...until I'm face & foot with the edge. As the small pebbles of the road of pain & disappointment teeter off I'm immobilized. Faced with the unknown.
You see I know the road I'm on. I'm safe here. If I step off what's next? Can I do it? Will I fail? Nobody expects me to succeed. Matter of fact they don't think I'll ever take that last step. I'm scared...I want to but ultimately I give up & don't even try. Thus the vicious cycle repeats.
You can imput your battle that part doesn't seem to matter it's the result that seems to make the difference. Do you jump or walk away? I've decide to try something different this time! I'm not walking away...I'm pitching a tent & staying! I want to jump, fall, slide whatever it takes I want to get over that edge! So I've decided to live on the edge. Keep my hopes up, make a plan to succeed. I'm even going to let myself get excited this time. I'm doing what I've not done so far...putting my hope in God my trust in Him not me. Where I'm weak He is strong & better than anything is that His word says I Can!
Jeremiah 29:11-13 "For I know the thoughts & plans that I have for you, says the Lord, thoughts & plans for welfare & peace and not for evil, to give you hope in your final outcome. Then you will call upon Me,& you will come & pray to Me,& I will hear & heed you. Then you will seek Me, inquire for, & require Me [as a vital necessity] & find Me when you search for Me with all your heart. (Jeremiah 29:11-13 AMP)
I'm standing on the edge calling out to God & praying for a shove!
Thursday, January 5, 2012
Wednesday, October 12, 2011
Events
These are all pics from a Ladies Summer Tea we held at our church in 2010. Each table was decorated to each womans taste or liking. We had a total of 19 tables. This was my table. 
Saturday, May 21, 2011
Always Last to Know
Don't you hate it when you find out something that everyone else seems to have known forever? Or maybe it's just me...
For those of you how may not know I'm a stay at home Mom of 3 great but growing kids & a Children's Pastor's wife. Being a good steward of what the Lord has given us is a high priority.
I've recently been introduced to a whole new world. More out of curiosity than anything else. About at year ago I came across a young woman at our local Walmart. She was armed with a pink binder FULL of coupons. The buggy was full of assorted items & a sweet little boy with his rocket blanket. It was the binder that caught my eye first & maybe I was nervous but I chose to follow her around a bit before I stopped her...Then right there in the frozen food isle the stalk was over I was face to face with "The Southern Coupon Queen". I managed an, "excuse me but what's all that?"...real smart I know. The young woman began to explain to me in a very matter of fact way that she was a "couponer" (a term I've never heard) & this was her binder. Well I asked the usual questions "Do you really save money doing this?" & "Aren't the store brands always cheaper?" She smiled a polite smile and answered all my questions. We talked for quite a while before we swapped names & FB info. In a matter of about an hour she managed to challenge my thinking all together. All the "saving" habits I had may not have really been saving me as much as it could have...This didn't sit well with me at all!
Soon after the chance encounter in Wally World, TLC advertise a special they were showing that night on "Extreme Couponing". That night flipped the switch!
Today I am a binder carrying member of the coupon club! I drank the Kool Aid & got it for free! Ladies if you haven't looked into this world I encourage you to sneak a peek! You really don't have anything to loose!To see what the Queen is all about check out her web page http://www.southerncouponqueen.com/ or you can find her on Face Book page by the same name.
This is my best by far trip CVS..Original price was $25 for both...I got BOTH for 6.50 & walked out with $5 in ECB's for my next purchase
This was one of my first trips Publix, CVS & Walgreen's $35...Includes 62 loads of laundry, 4 razors, 2 kleenex, 2 dish soap, 2 tampons, 2 yogurt, 2 cheez its, 2 brownies, 2 meal kits & Mattie threw in 5 seed packets & 1 pk of gummy bears at full price!
For those of you how may not know I'm a stay at home Mom of 3 great but growing kids & a Children's Pastor's wife. Being a good steward of what the Lord has given us is a high priority.
I've recently been introduced to a whole new world. More out of curiosity than anything else. About at year ago I came across a young woman at our local Walmart. She was armed with a pink binder FULL of coupons. The buggy was full of assorted items & a sweet little boy with his rocket blanket. It was the binder that caught my eye first & maybe I was nervous but I chose to follow her around a bit before I stopped her...Then right there in the frozen food isle the stalk was over I was face to face with "The Southern Coupon Queen". I managed an, "excuse me but what's all that?"...real smart I know. The young woman began to explain to me in a very matter of fact way that she was a "couponer" (a term I've never heard) & this was her binder. Well I asked the usual questions "Do you really save money doing this?" & "Aren't the store brands always cheaper?" She smiled a polite smile and answered all my questions. We talked for quite a while before we swapped names & FB info. In a matter of about an hour she managed to challenge my thinking all together. All the "saving" habits I had may not have really been saving me as much as it could have...This didn't sit well with me at all!
Soon after the chance encounter in Wally World, TLC advertise a special they were showing that night on "Extreme Couponing". That night flipped the switch!
Today I am a binder carrying member of the coupon club! I drank the Kool Aid & got it for free! Ladies if you haven't looked into this world I encourage you to sneak a peek! You really don't have anything to loose!To see what the Queen is all about check out her web page http://www.southerncouponqueen.com/ or you can find her on Face Book page by the same name.
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
Pardon My Progress
Have you ever seen those signs in the mall..."please excuse our progress...". I have & never gave it another thought until now...
Mattie got me up the other morning to go for a walk. Didn't want to & it put me in a bad mood...the way things do when someone is just doing what YOU asked them too!...It took all of about 1 minute for the Lord to get my behind out of the bed (He can be very persuasive). Got ready grabbed the ipod & out the door by about 6 or so...
Listening to "He loves us"-David Crowder Band...My favorite. I tend to have "Aha" moments when I least expect them. I'm a stay@home mom of 3, I don't get a lot of "me" time or time to just think about things uninterrupted...I end up with a lot of thought fragments...if that makes any sense at all. The Lord laid a message on my heart for our Ladies several weeks ago. But as with most things it was just so fragmented...It's about knowing who we are. As women we are rarely our own..we are always some body's someone...Daughter,Friend, Sister, Girlfriend, Wife, Mother...& in so many ways we begrudge those appointments like they take our identity away, therefore we search to"find ourselves". The world would have us to believe there is "more" to us than this...we need to go and "live", "experiment"...do what "feels" right to us. All we're left with is regret & a used shell of who we were meant to be.
What if what we were meant to be was just that...we are a sum of our very own parts I AM a daughter a sister a friend, wife & mother...What if we sought to fulfill those purposes & not run away from them. The Lord has a gentle way of hearing the silent cries of our heart. In order to walk with purpose we have to our needs met fully by our Lord...too often as women we look to the people and things around us to serve a fillers for the places only God can fill...to feed a hunger only God can feed. We where all made in the image and likeness of God...the needs we have as women are fulfilled in the one that created those very needs.
He is God the Father...our protector
"He is like a father to us, tender & sympathetic to those who reverence him...But the loving-kindness of our Lord is from everlasting to everlasting..."-Ps 113: 13 & 17
Most of us have a father...if he is anything like mine he is kind & gentle...when you were a child & fell or hurt yourself he was there to pick you up, dust you off & tend to your boo boos. Praise God that He Is the "Abba" (daddy)father. "If you then, evil as you are, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Heavenly Father give the Holy Spirit to those who ask & continue to ask Him!"
-Luke 11:13
He too picks us up & dusts us off tends to our wounds. He is always dependable.
He Is Jesus the Bridegroom...the Lover of our soul
This to me is the Most interesting of the three...how can he love me this way, why would he want to?...the countless references in the Songs of Solomon are just a sample of His beautiful love...
"How beautiful you are, my love, how beautiful! Your eyes are soft as doves..."1:15
"A lily among thorns.."2:2
"You are so beautiful, my love,every part of you."4:7
"my darling bride is like a private garden, a spring that no one else can have, a fountain of my own. You are like a lovely orchard bearing precious fruit, with rarest of perfumes...You are a garden fountain, a well of living water..." 4:12
"but you my dove, my perfect one, are the only one among them all, without an equal..."6:9
The chapter later says that He awakened love in us...He hears the silent cries of our heart. He speaks to the unspoken desire we all have to be wanted to be desired. & He is jealous for me..
He is the Holy Spirit...the comforter
The Holy spirit has several purposes, but there is one that I feel particularly resonates with women. The Comforter. Here again I find myself in need of something only God can give. Something that we're very good at is worry...anxiety...fret... analyzing.
When I looked up the meaning of Comfort it simply said-" Providing freedom from worry"...WOW. Jesus left us but provided us freedom...from the very thing that tends to control us...WORRY!..Synonyms for Comfort were Soothe, Console & Reassure. He never ceases to amaze me.
In three parts He completes me...not in that cheesy way we see on Movies or TV but in a real undeniable way. So please pardon my progress...I am overcome by my God. He's showing me who I can be if I can believe in who He created me to be...
Mattie got me up the other morning to go for a walk. Didn't want to & it put me in a bad mood...the way things do when someone is just doing what YOU asked them too!...It took all of about 1 minute for the Lord to get my behind out of the bed (He can be very persuasive). Got ready grabbed the ipod & out the door by about 6 or so...
Listening to "He loves us"-David Crowder Band...My favorite. I tend to have "Aha" moments when I least expect them. I'm a stay@home mom of 3, I don't get a lot of "me" time or time to just think about things uninterrupted...I end up with a lot of thought fragments...if that makes any sense at all. The Lord laid a message on my heart for our Ladies several weeks ago. But as with most things it was just so fragmented...It's about knowing who we are. As women we are rarely our own..we are always some body's someone...Daughter,Friend, Sister, Girlfriend, Wife, Mother...& in so many ways we begrudge those appointments like they take our identity away, therefore we search to"find ourselves". The world would have us to believe there is "more" to us than this...we need to go and "live", "experiment"...do what "feels" right to us. All we're left with is regret & a used shell of who we were meant to be.
What if what we were meant to be was just that...we are a sum of our very own parts I AM a daughter a sister a friend, wife & mother...What if we sought to fulfill those purposes & not run away from them. The Lord has a gentle way of hearing the silent cries of our heart. In order to walk with purpose we have to our needs met fully by our Lord...too often as women we look to the people and things around us to serve a fillers for the places only God can fill...to feed a hunger only God can feed. We where all made in the image and likeness of God...the needs we have as women are fulfilled in the one that created those very needs.
He is God the Father...our protector
"He is like a father to us, tender & sympathetic to those who reverence him...But the loving-kindness of our Lord is from everlasting to everlasting..."-Ps 113: 13 & 17
Most of us have a father...if he is anything like mine he is kind & gentle...when you were a child & fell or hurt yourself he was there to pick you up, dust you off & tend to your boo boos. Praise God that He Is the "Abba" (daddy)father. "If you then, evil as you are, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Heavenly Father give the Holy Spirit to those who ask & continue to ask Him!"
-Luke 11:13
He too picks us up & dusts us off tends to our wounds. He is always dependable.
He Is Jesus the Bridegroom...the Lover of our soul
This to me is the Most interesting of the three...how can he love me this way, why would he want to?...the countless references in the Songs of Solomon are just a sample of His beautiful love...
"How beautiful you are, my love, how beautiful! Your eyes are soft as doves..."1:15
"A lily among thorns.."2:2
"You are so beautiful, my love,every part of you."4:7
"my darling bride is like a private garden, a spring that no one else can have, a fountain of my own. You are like a lovely orchard bearing precious fruit, with rarest of perfumes...You are a garden fountain, a well of living water..." 4:12
"but you my dove, my perfect one, are the only one among them all, without an equal..."6:9
The chapter later says that He awakened love in us...He hears the silent cries of our heart. He speaks to the unspoken desire we all have to be wanted to be desired. & He is jealous for me..
He is the Holy Spirit...the comforter
The Holy spirit has several purposes, but there is one that I feel particularly resonates with women. The Comforter. Here again I find myself in need of something only God can give. Something that we're very good at is worry...anxiety...fret... analyzing.
When I looked up the meaning of Comfort it simply said-" Providing freedom from worry"...WOW. Jesus left us but provided us freedom...from the very thing that tends to control us...WORRY!..Synonyms for Comfort were Soothe, Console & Reassure. He never ceases to amaze me.
In three parts He completes me...not in that cheesy way we see on Movies or TV but in a real undeniable way. So please pardon my progress...I am overcome by my God. He's showing me who I can be if I can believe in who He created me to be...
Friday, August 13, 2010
WOW!
This is so new to me! I hope you all like the little things I have to say.
So obviously I'm a Pastor's wife but that's not all...First & most important I'm a daughter of the King! I am married to my high school sweet heart & the absolute love of my life Pastor Matt Sasser (almost 10 yrs now!),
I'm the proud mommy of 3 beautiful kids...Tony Randal 6 Miranda Kaye 4 Nathaniel Joseph 16 mths, as if that isn't enough we're children's Pastors at Ozark First Assembly of God 3yrs now. The idea of the blog came from something I tend to say often..."When the Lord called me to the ministry He broke all the molds"...
So put away all your preconceived notions of what you think it is to be a pastor's wife & I'll just be me...between the kids, the church & the church kids I have to keep it sassy!
So obviously I'm a Pastor's wife but that's not all...First & most important I'm a daughter of the King! I am married to my high school sweet heart & the absolute love of my life Pastor Matt Sasser (almost 10 yrs now!),
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